pre-exam syndromes

ok, assalamualaikum.
minggu depan aku de shortcase tp skang aku de kt sini. ehh, ayat apekah ini? Zzzz
aku ni biasa la. bile exam da dekat, mula la nk membuang-buang masa. haah, cm skng ni la. update blog plak. hishh. and masa ni la rasa cm nk buat aktiviti macam2. masa free aritu awal2 posting xnk plak kn. (ehh, asal aku membebel kt diri sendiri ni? hahaha) rasa cam nk gi tgk wayang, nk main boling, nk melalak, nk main pingpong, nk main futsal, nk main volleyball, nk berjalan2, gi bercuti. pastu teringin nk mkn itu la ini la. sume nk try masak. masa free bli bungkus je. xpn grg ayam je. haha. huish, ni kalau mak aku taw mesti die bising ni. hahaha. adek aku baru call, kt blakang tu aku de dgr mak ayah aku tgh cakap2 sal status adek laki aku kt fesbuk. uuu bahaya2. xleh la main fesbuk bebyk da. so aku tulis la kt sini. hahaha. okla, xtaw nk mengarang ape. nk sidai baju la. hee, bye bye!

confused. oh tidakkkk~

yummy!

wahhh kenyangnye! alhamdulillah. aku jumpe pizza sedap. lg sedap dr dominos atau pizza hut. homemade punye. cheese byk! topping byk! puas ati mkn. tp pizza die kecik je. tp de 6 slice. mkn sorg mmg kenyang. pekena plak ngn air klape. mmg syiok! cm xkene je kn combination pizza ngn air kelapa. haha!

p/s: arini je aku tgk 2 episode wild romance, gossip girl, vampire diaries, one tree hill ngn running man. nk insaf la skng, k bye!

shortcase is back in town

cuaknye nk shortcase! lg bape minggu je. em........3 minggu?!
@.@
name je shortcase. mmg la 20 minit je. tp rasa cam 20 minit tula masa plg lame kt dunia ni. rase cm 20 tahun. mase tu rase cm xde sape melainkn diri sendiri, patient ngn examiner. makhluk lain kt sekeliling cm xnmpk da. cm dlm dunia masing2. pastu rase cm kaki xjejak lantai. cm terapung-apung. oh tidakkkk~ *over gile exaggerate*

aku nervous da weh. examine budak kecik amatlah complex, complicated sampai complication jadinye. too many things and details yg kne ingat tapi aku x ingat. stress stress stress! ya Allah, permudahkanlah. berikan ku ketenangan. aminn.

family matters

Assalamualaikum.

Oh my oh my oh my. dari aritu syik wat cwu cwu cwu. muak da aku dok wat status same je kat fesbuk tu smpi semua org pn muak kot nk bace. haha. xpela, kali ni bia aku story mende laen.

persoalan: adakah aku anak yg manja?

hmm, aku pn xtaw sebnanye. korg tgk aku ni cm terlalu dimanjakan ke? haha perlu ke korg nk tgk aku. annoying je pertanyaan aku. haha. ye, mmg xdinafikan sjk aku belajar kt malaysia ni, aku balek hampir setiap ujung minggu. bkn hampir. mmg setiap ujung minggu. tapiii kekdg tu bkn aku nk pn. cm contoh la kn, aku plan kate next week xnk balek. tup2 mak aku call kate adek aku balek la, atau ade kenduri sedare la atau nk gi bercuti ke. haa, jd automatic plan asal aku utk xbalek bertukar jd balek. jd cmne tu. salah aku ke? kire anak manje ke tu? oh tidakkkk~ hahaha

tapi i guess aku ni jenis yg berpegang pd prinsip "family first". walaupun nanti kt umah aku merungut2 ke atau malas nk pegi kedai bli brg ke atau kene wat kerja rumah ke tp aku still balek gk. bak kate pepatah 'rumahku syurgaku'. cewahhh~ tp blik aku sentiasa bersepah. haha. kalau adek2 atau abg aku balek umh, aku pn mesti nk balek umah gk. wpun kekdg tu kn aku dok dlm blik je main ipad and wat dunno je ngn derg yg maen game la apela, tp still being at home with your family is the best feeling ever.

kalau sorg je yg blk, aku rase kesian lak derng dok umah sorg2. cm xde rakan sebaya plak. padahal derng xkesah pn. haha! aku je feeling lebey. tp bile aku balek umah sorg, derang wat dunno je. kuang asam tol. tapi seriously, aku excited gile kalau 1 family nk gi bercuti. xkire la jauh ke dekat ke dlm malaysia ke oversea ke. mkn kedai mamak pn layan jela~ :D

and skarang ni, most of the time yg ade kt umah parents aku jela. yela, semua dok asrama/hostel/study oversea. aku ngn adek laki aku leh la slalu blk sbb dkt. abg aku once or twice a year. raya pn xtentu balek x. yg bongsu bile ade overnight baru leh balek umah. so, aku rase cm whenever possible, elok la kalau aku balek temankn parents aku. i know some ppl umah jauh, ssh nk balek. but a simple phone call pn jadi la. zmn skang kn zmn IT. ade handphone, leh video call, leh webcam, emel, surat, fax, merpati n apetah lg. hua3. and kalau cuti pjg, balek saja. hehe. aku kesian taw tgk atok aku kt kampung sorg2. bkn every week leh balek kmpung. n balek pn 2-3 hari je kalau xde cuti pjg. sdey weh sdey. huu~~ so aku slalu pk sunyi ke parents aku kt umah tu? mkn apela derang? pintu semua da kunci lom? n mcm2 lg la.

so, gitu la al-kisah post terbaru kali ni. k, kembali ke dunia realiti. CWU. haha muak x muak x? ok, gudnite! ^__^

none

Assalamualaikum.
Saya tgh siapkan assignment yg xsiap2 lg ni. haihh.

seriously aku ske dok umah. kt sini ape pn xbes. bikin serabut je.
*sigh*

1st August 2011. 1st day of fasting month. senang nak ingat brape hari da puasa. :)) nk balek cheras tapiiiiiiiiiii malas! malas nk drive. malas nk jalan. kalau biar baju kotor seminggu, die x jadi basi kn? kekeke. next week jela basuh. okies, saya tgh boring duk umah sorang2. adek2 sume da balek asrama. T__T

k laa, nak gotong royong bilik ah. kemas pn bkn tido sane. tido blik mak je. huahahaha. anak manje. LOL. papai. salam~

he spends more time at the mosque now. but when he comes home, he feels as if he is alone in the world.

dad

conversation with dad after terawih.

dad: wani cuti sminggu eh?

me: aah. bah, nt wani mungkin nk balek cheras jap dlm minggu ni.

dad: oh, bile? hari ape?

me: xsure lagi.

dad: balek cheras nk watpe?

me: ohh, nt nk kemas2 sket. aritu balek kn rushing.

dad: oh, ti bawak la bibik skali.

me: haaaa, nk buat ape?

dad: kate nk kemas2. sroh la bibik tolong2.

me: alaa, xyah la. wani.............(xsempat abeskan ayat)

dad: ohhh, nak gi dating ehhhh???

me: ne leh dating. sok puasa la. sebulan taw puasa.

dad: *giggle3* oh, cmtu ke.

ehh, cm pelik je ayah aku giggle. muahahah.

bulan puasa

alhamdulillah. Ramadhan tiba lagi.

selamat berpuasa bagi yang berpuasa.

bagi yang x, selamat la juga ye. kekeke.

terawih yok malam ni. :))

how he makes me cry...

Thursday, 28th July 2011.

a memorable day.

a sad day.

a heartbreaking day.

a day that no one in the family would ever forget...

it's only been 3 days. the pain is still there. there is still sorrow. and grief. goshh, it hurts.

what hurts me more is seeing him alone. he is the head of the family. he has to act strong. but deep inside i know, he hurts the most. 80 years of life together and suddenly she is gone. seeing them together in the past, u can understand how he feels right now. but u wont really hurt if u haven't faced death of your closest ones before. when she was sick, he was always there by her side. always. he took care of her. she was bedridden. he bought her a bed. he bought her diapers, her medication. went to the hospital to get the ambulance. orang kampung, xde kete. kne gi hospital naik motor to call for an ambulance. slept at the hospital to accompany her. hospitals in rural area. u can just imagine the condition there but he always stayed with her without fail. looking at his tired face, but he always managed to put a smile everytime. but last Thursday, Allah lebih sayangkan dia. she complained difficulty of breathing. my grandfather rushed to the hospital to get an ambulance. but by the time he reached home, she was already gone. cannot imagine how he felt during that time.

yesterday, he asked my aunts to distribute my grandmother's belongings. her clothes, her bags, her perfume. everything. he said 'jgn tunjuk barang2 die kt depan aku. aku xnk tengok. nanti aku teringat-ingat. ayang aku tu. dlu gi Mekah skali." and then he stopped. i guess he was holding back so that he would not cry. seeing and hearing him say that, i cried. it hurts him much more than it hurts us all.

he is always giving me pocket money everytime i balek kampung. i always say its okay, simpan la duit tu but he always insist on giving. then i just found out, he would sell durian by the road hoping ppl would come and buy. not easy. just sitting there till the evening waiting for ppl to stop and buy. even kalau jual abes pn, brape byk sgtlh duit tu. and then giving me that money to spend for college. he gave me the money and i glanced at his wallet. only left rm1 notes. i cried.

i keep complaining that i have no money, but the fact is i spend too much. then every month, i get my allowance. even if i sleep at home and do nothing, i will get my allowance. so seeing an old man, working till his last strength just to get a small amount of money, and then giving it to me. im ashamed of myself. eventhough his children gives him money, but he still does all the hard work. and now, no one is there to wait for him to come back from work. he eats alone. fasts alone. sahurs alone. no one to talk to at home. all alone. waiting for raya when all his children and grandchildren come back for raya. and a week after, ppl going back to the city. and he's all alone. again.

i know, people come and go. this life is only temporary. but we are human beings. we are not perfect. we have feelings. so, its okay if u cry. u dont have to hold back. insyaAllah, 1 day u will meet her again in heaven. so be strong for now and pray for her.

i pray that her soul is in peace and tergolong dalam kalangan orang yg beriman. semoga beliau dijauhkan seksaan kubur dan dipermudahkan beliau untuk melintasi titian sirat. my prayers are always with u. Al-Fatihah.

saya mau main alat muzik dgn hebat

assalamualaikum.

arini da stat posting baru iaitu SURGERY. summary of today = blurr. terkebil-kebil cm br stat clinical years padahal ni last posting for this year. xpela, baru 1st day. u may be excused. wahahaha aku plk yg bg pelepasan.

kt wad surgery ni byk surgeon2 ganteng uhhh. antaranye Mr H. xabes2 ngn Mr H. tp saje je usha2. xkose la nk ngorat. ahahaha. ramai kate surgery cm relax tp x cm relax pn. bz jekk. haiyaa, seb bek de thaipusam ngn chinese new year. dpt gk cuti lame2. hehe. ok, intro xde kaitan ngn tajok.

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gua rase die stylo la. nnyi sodap. men gitar pn hebat. jeles tgk org terer men gitar. why can't i be like that? *cehh praktis xmo nk harap tros jd pro. blah la! haha* haa, kt atas ni la najwalatif tu. comey je. muda2 da terer men gitar. ciss gua rase tergugat. wahahaha xleh blah. gi la tgk video2 die wat. bg aku mmg lyn la. ramai kate die the next YUNA. tp aku xtaw la nk join berkate jgk ke x sbb aku jrg dgr yuna nnyi. huu~


haa, tgk. stylo x stylo taylor swift men gitar neh?? mmg la. die men kerincing pn stylo sbb die taylor swift kot! hahaha. leh berangan jela aku. dlm mimpi2 konon aku cm terer gile men gitar. ok x? sob~sob~

im in desperate need of shopping. ggrrrr!!

shoes.
bags.
clothes.
jeans.
scarfs.
accessories.
anything.
everything.

watever. i'll take anything i can grab.

uneventful holiday

assalamualaikum

it feels kinda different la my lil sis xde. kalo x leh bergosip ngn die, then tgk vdeo korea berulang kali. pastu tgk cite korea kt tv. pastu mlm2 kalo lapa, leh ajk die turun teman mkn supper. then gosip lg. tp skng die kt asrama. huhu. xde geng. yg tggl my 2 brothers. keje derang men game je. i mn reti. ske men pn game lumba kete. tp zmn skang mn de org men game tu da. hahaha ketinggalan zmn tol la.

neway, skng tgh cuti end of posting. 1 mggu. tym cuti plk la die gi asrama. Zzzz tol. so, tpkse la aku cari inisiatif len ntok menghiburkn hati ni. hahaha ayat xleh blah! aku nk ajk brader2 aku gi jln2, tgk wyg ke, mkn2 ke. bes bile kua ngn abg aku sbb nt aku xyah drive. ngeee~ pastu aku nk ajk adek aku joging. xtaw la berjaya ke x sbb pg knfem xbgn. ptg pn tido jgk jd alamatnye joging dlm mmpi jela. hahaha. msti plik kn apsal la aku nk joging ni padahal xpnh pn b4 ni. sbb nye ahad ni aku masok futsal. saje2 je. bkn terer pn. jd konon2 la cm pemain harimau malaya, kite kne la training dlu. derng kn training kt area hotel je, jd aku training kt area umh jela. hahaha xde kne mengena.

haihh, bile aku cuti, xde plk gi holiday. bile xcuti, tym tu la nk gi holiday sane sini smpi terponteng klas. opps, kntoi.

p/s: nk DURIAN. nk CENDOL PULUT.